I considered myself bloated today despite the fact my hip was doing it’s weird thing over there!
I still ate close to 2000 calories and burnt off a lot on the gym too. I had enough energy to workout a lot, I just didn’t have a whole lot of strength, my arms always get the brunt of my weight loss happenings.
I feel greedy but I don’t want to think about it, I ate because I was hungry, not because I was binging. My body is lacking in nutrients that I’m craving in such a big way so I’m going to work on a intake that is full of nutrition and the macros I need but one that is also going to prevent a relapse and allow me to workout 4-5x a week, I miss the gym, I miss building the strength and I miss being free of the constant anguish I put myself through.
Tomorrow marks a really terrible anniversary for me. And to be honest I’m scared and I’m worried. And I hope I can keep it all under control.
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